The wicked?

It's been a fun ride, these past few years. And although I am nowhere near any level of wisdom, I can't help but notice patterns and in turn somehow dictate future actions of my own, or others in this fashion. It's a sense of elation, relief and caution in which I go out and do any kind of action.

I've been incredibly careful in the past few years about who I've become close to, friendship or relationship wise. It's all too easy to get a bad instinct about someone, give the benefit of the doubt, only to be let down pretty brutally later on. I know that my personal beliefs and expectations are just that: personal. And I can't hold anyone to all the standards of which I try to live by and practice. There is a common theme that has emerged from those I am close to, and those who inspire me... just the basic idea of generosity and the forethought of actions.

Strength is also a huge factor in all this. Strength is kindness, strength is compassion, strength is being honest. It's not being a pushover by any means, as my best way to deal with unsavory characters is to simply ignore them...not let them close, or regain any certain ground they previously had. Everyone has their intrinsic nature, and every once in awhile it mixes with mine, or those I consider truly respectable. Give me a year with a different gal every week, or give me a gal who I'll love for a year. I'll always choose the latter.

Cheap debasing or intentional dishonesty towards a person is a good way to stay around those who in turn will do the same to you. The early twenties bullshit got old at 19 and completely worn out at 24. In relating to my last writing, there have been elements cropping up that give me hope for new adventures that don't revolve worn out scenes or shady people. Now without school, where else would you go to meet people interested in theology, the lack thereof, or just a general hour of peace? Hmmm. Got an idea, though I doubt Church is for me. I don't like talking about The Four Noble Truths with drunks on Burnside either.

Either or, I think everyone knows as we get older to trust instincts, and I hope you all hang on to those around you who really care about who you are, not what you offer. Those with a sense of humor that matches your own. Those who can raise a pint through the best and worst. It's a bright f'n future, just be open to new ideas and people who sincerely, honestly kick ass.